Day of Surgery (before)

I know this is late.

Dakota had a friend go with us b/c we found out at the last minute that the girls couldn't leave the main floor of the hospital, she helped Dakota watch them. We pulled in the parking lot, parked and I said good bye to the girls....Dakota took them to my sisters until she went to work....Cheyenne had a hard time with it even after talking to her before we left. I told her she was going to go to Aunt Macana'a (Veronica's) house with Dakota, Memphis and Danielle until she had to leave for work then she would come back to the hospital and I would be done soon after and could see her. That seemed to helped, she did ask about Zoila and when I told her she was at school Cheyenne wanted to go to school. I gave her a kiss, hug and told her I loved her, then went to the other side and did the same to Memphis....for some reason Dakota didn't want the talk, kiss or hug.

Chris and I checked in and waited to be called back. I was getting nervous as we waited and took the computer while Chris went to do something, was going to start a blog but read the comments to the last blog and tried to comment but it wouldn't work. For those of you wondering what I was talking about going up my butt, it wasn't a penis, it was a fleet enema. Anyway as I was trying to send that they called my name and I never got it sent.

I had to go back alone to get undressed and hooked up, it took a while for them to get done....not sure why. They finally let Chris come back and we talked about the surgery, that is when I almost lost it. I couldn't help but think I would never be able to give Dakota a brother he could play with, that is all he asked for from the time he was 4 until he was a teenager. I say almost b/c the hospital Pastor came in as I was starting to loose it so I had to compose myself. Then of course I had to ask myself if this was ok with God and should I ask the Pastor if it was ok and I told my self that if it wasn't ok then a Priest would have walked in.

Didn't have to wait long after that for Dr R to come in and say we were ready to roll. I was wheeled in the OR, put on the table then knocked out. I did get to see the robotic machine they used, boy, that thing is cool.

And Chris, I remember the anesthesiologists name was Wendy and I do remember what she looks like.