19 years ago today

I can't believe that 19 years ago at this time I was sitting in my hospital room enjoying my time with my first born....he was a little over 12 hours old.

I ended up having a c-section with him for many reasons. I know many will say "your Dr was just trying to scare you", but, I am glad I made the choice I did and if I had to do it again....not knowing how big he was....I would. Face it, back in 1991 we didn't have internet like we do now so I couldn't look anything up or go on a chat board and ask what anyone thought, not to mention no one really knows how far along I was b/c we weren't trying and I bled like AF was here. He was my first so when I was told he could be anywhere from 9 lbs to 11 lbs and a c-section was best for both of us I chose to do what was best for my son, yes I know some have popped big babies out with no problem but back then I didn't....and even if I did I would have still chosen to go in the next morning to have a c-section.

My EDD was April 15, they changed it to later and didn't tell me. When I went in for my appointment on the 16th and found out my DD was changed and was a week away and they wouldn't do anything for 2 weeks I complained. She wheeled the u/s machine in and said I could have him the next day, he measured 10 lbs. Bad part was he didn't want to come out, he hadn't dropped and my body was no where near ready to deliver him....that was another reason for the c-section. She told me they could induce but b/c I wasn't dilated and he hadn't dropped it could take a few days for him to come out.

Anyway....they cut my water and just about everyone in the room got wet....yes I had a ton of water with all my kids....the first thing I heard was, "look at all that hair", followed by, "the placenta is big too". Got to see Dakota for a little, couldn't touch him b/c back then they tied your arms down. They wouldn't let me see him for most of the morning b/c he had water on his lungs but by late afternoon he was in the room with me and stayed there until the next day when my nurse made me sleep....she even gave me something to help.

I love you my son, even though I never had a day of sinus or asthma problems until after I had you....yes I blame you, I can, I'm your mom :-)